The filter

It's something that sometimes makes me feel so good inside

It's something that enhances the beauty that I can't see inside of  myself

So I need this filter 

I can just see myself using this filter

Because it makes me feel enchanted 

Like a cloud of likes and smileys and faces to make me feel appreciated  for once in my natural born life

It covers up all the negativity and all the doubts in this world

This lifetime that I'm in

It makes me wonder if the world is as cruel as seems

But that's just a cover up 

 And I need to realize that

The people of this world don't care about me

  And I need to realize that

As I'm writing this poem I'm getting clarity for myself

I'm starting to learn about me

And the way that I'm meant to be

But I can't do that by hiding behind a camera 

And maybe hoping one day that someone will except and love me for me and not for what I can bring to the table

I don't want to be just some "fat ugly trying to look cute  looking girl" in some picture

I want to be me!

I want people to see me become an amazing powerful young woman 

I want to find my voice since I have recently  lost it

I want to be heard 

But I can't keep using this filter

Because it's hiding me 

No one else can know me as well as me 

Now Why am I talking so much?

Oh! I know why it's because I want people to know that I exist 

That I don't want to stay in the background forever

That's not my destiny 

That's  not the plans that God, my savior has for me

And that is why I don't need ANY filter

Because God has created me in his will 

He has a plan for me that I still need to figure out

So I need to stop putting in so much doubt 

As I'm talking to you I feel that you can relate to me and the way  that I feel

Now hopefully you don't look less of me 

This was something hard to write 

Becuase I had to look deep inside myself 

To put these words on  this page

To put myself on display