What have you lost?
What have I lost?
A sin we sentence ourselves to
Losing someone we love
Someone we would never lose
Someone you swore to forever keep from being lost to you
To lose someone for something else
An exchange you were forced to make
An exchange of hearts just waiting to be broken as soon as one enters your chest while theirs is ripped away from you
A stab of betrayal into the heart no one wanted.
As your regret slowly slithers onto your shoulders and into that new heart inside your chest as you tell yourself
“It’s my fault!”
The regret gets inside your head and it tells you once again
“It’s your fault!”
Regret blinds your eyes with tears because there is too much inside of your head and you can’t let it out
So we cry
We cry a downpour of everlasting loneliness onto a soil of judgement and too many feelings that have been jumbled together by our new and broken heart
We cry until there are no tears left
Then from the regret, a dandelion grows
A dandelion of hope where our regret can disperse
So we cry
And we cry
And we cry
But sometimes the regret remains
How do we live with this broken heart we never asked for?
And this head full of regret for losing that one person we swore we would never lose?
So that one day maybe all of those tears can clear your fragile eyes
Like the clear bright sky after a severe storm
You cry so that one day maybe you could forget the regret in your head and question why you were crying in the first place
You cry to fade the lyrics of that sad song always playing your mind so you can’t sing along anymore
You cry so that one day maybe that dandelion will grow and evolve and you can make a wish
Not a wish for a new heart
But a wish to have the strength to mend the broken heart that you were given
Not a wish to numb the pain they left you with you
But a wish to be able to be able to get through it
Not a wish to forget them and the scars they gave you
But a wish to be able to be proud of your scars instead