What Was Wrong vs What Feels Right
You taught me to wait
Because you said I love you back
You taught me that it was okay to accept apologies
When your actions were like a song stuck on a broken track.
Because I loved you
You twisted my emotions
And took context out of my words
Because you loved me
I thought our highs made me fly above the birds.
Because I loved you
I allowed you to ghost me
Causing restless nights where I wondered what I had done wrong
Since you loved me
And I knew I wasn’t all that strong.
Because I loved you
I let this happen.
Because I loved you
I allowed myself to break.
But you weren’t the right guy for me
In fact- you weren’t even a good man to stand by
Because you fed off a 16 year old girl’s spirit
Until all I could do was lie in bed and cry.
You taught me how that was true
Because you tell me everyday I love you back
You taught me that it’s okay to accept apologies from our little arguments
Since your actions become more careful- to make sure they don’t become a song stuck on that former broken track.
Because I love you
You message me every morning
And make sure that I’m doing okay
Because you love me
I know from the reassurance you give that you’re willing to commit and stay.
Because I love you
I allow myself to open my guarded walls
So you can have access to my entire soul
Since you love me
You ooze serenity, especially when at times my emotions are still out of control.
Because I love you
I’m letting go of past pain so we can happen.
Because I love you
I allowed myself to love again.