People like drama 

they are hard to please 

hard to entertain 

hard to hold on to 

slipping through your fingers like water 

 So far gone.  

 

When I do the right thing I feel hollow 

empty and alone 

it had to be done 

you got under my skin 

and i don't think it's a good thing  

 

there's a reason I have walls  

i dont want you to tear them down 

I don't think you can handle what's on the other side 

 

so I rebuilt with bricks I made of bitterness  

and annoyingness  

and bitchiness 

i tried my best to be my worst 

to kill the warm thing that had started to grow  

between us

I smothered it with bricks 

and drove the wedge 

between us.

 

But there was never an us

i would say say welcome to the outside 

but I never let you in 

 

I had moments when I let my guard down 

because you get under my skin   

and it's not a good thing. 

 

those moments,  

they were mistakes  

i hope i am strong enough 

to never repeat,  

for your sake 

and mine.

 

ive never wanted to kiss someone so much one moment 

and chuck them off a bridge the next 

i will not let this be 

sad beautiful tragic   

i am not some silly girl 

in a frilly dress

i refuse to let my heart break  

i refuse to be another demon in your life

 

  I've never felt this way before  

and that is dangerous   

Which is reason number 1 

that I had to do 

what I did.

 

reason 2: you love someone else.  

and as much as I would rather chuck her off a bridge instead. love means something.  

Reason number three: I'm not a good person; not good enough.  

and she is a saint in your eyes while I..... I don't think you even see me really.

Reason number 4: I know when someone's heart is taken  

despite being a terrible human being  

I have some morals.   

sometimes.

 

 I am wise and foolish. 

Wise because I drove you away 

and also foolish because now I can't talk to you 

without feeling hurt. 

And that's idiotic.  

 

But it's the idiotic truth I think  

you deserve to know 

see what I saved you from? 

A lifetime of me  

and what could have been.   

Good deed complete  

broken heart check 

facade back in place 

And we are a go. 

 

So Thats it  

the truth. 

I'm sorry. 

That's all.