Trust
It is not
That I mean to shun you
It is not
That I hate to see you
It is not
That I dislike you.
I do not
Ignore you" just 'cuz"
I do not
Want you to hurt
I do not
Not care.
It is not
Introversion.
I am not
Depressed.
It is not
Anything you did.
It is I.
I. I. I.
I want to be friendly.
I want to be pleasant.
I want to help people.
I want to understand.
To love.
To speak.
But here am I,
Again, standing
On this crevice,
Leaning, stepping.
Yet in the end,
I cannot step off:
For I fear the fall.
Falling, trusting.
And you beckon,
But I refuse
For not the landing,
But the courage
I do not possess
To take the step
And lose control
Even a moment.
Because I hide
And smile within
Behind the glass
Of Composure.
Because I turn
Away from outreach
And inside, self:
I will not trust.
I will not let go.