But Then I Grew
Not too long ago
I was sure of what I needed
What would keep me going in life
What would hone me and help pump my blood in the morning
And those days when bed seems like the only option
Yet over time these things have changed as I have matured
At first I thought it to be wealth
Of course! It had to be wealth
Everyone who's rich couldn't have as many problems as I did
Life must be so much easier
But then I grew,
And saw that it wasn't the issue of a number being attached to me
So I moved on
Then I thought it to be paper
A small one
On it confirming that I had wasted 4 years of my existence
At a school I didn't care for nor wished to be a part of
So I could sit in a cube
Performing menial tasks
To acquire a middle class check to endow my wife with
And repeat the same process for my entire life
But then I grew,
And I realized that this would strip away at my sanity
Later I gave up
I decided not to make my own drive
But have others give it to me
I thought it to be acceptance
Those with massive personality can get massive love or backlash
But those with no personality get neither
To be neutral, is to be safe
But then I grew,
And I knew this wasn't me, nor could it be
I couldn't be nothing
I had to be something
And that was it
I now know I need purpose
I will only ever be happy when I accomplish that which I aspire
I've fled from it my whole life
I cannot live at peace unless I am always acomplishing
That which others said no
Said can't be done
That I said can't be done
To live without purpose is to be but a shell
We are the Creator's instruments
All, and we will never be at rest unless we strive for that which we were crafted to do