As I have gotten older, I realized a couple of things about who I am,
And that is that I tend to leave a lot of how I feel about myself to other people, but I am really tired of giving a damn.
I am tired of not seeing my worth because of all that people around me who reject me or tell me I'm not good enough,
And I have let so many of those thoughts and feelings control my mind, and that is why it has been so tough.
I am tired of not recognizing who I am because of the people around me who couldn't care less,
And I am tired of waking up every morning from a rough night and trying to start over and clean up the mess.
Maybe it has been that way all along, that it is not that I am not good enough for them, but that they are not good enough for me,
And maybe if I had realized this sooner, a lot of things would be different and things would finally play out the way that they were meant to be.
Maybe all along he was intimidated because he thought I would hurt him, but he missed out on the perfect chance,
Because he thought that he wasn't good enough for me, and that had messed with his stance.
It's not my problem anymore, because he slept on the person who would never do him wrong,
And that he he never realized how perfect we would be and that our bond would be strong.
It's not just with him, or the men in my life that I am trying to pursue,
These feelings also go for my "friends" and the relationships that I thought were true.
I always knew deep down that you can not trust all of the people who you consider to be your friends,
Because they will leave you in the dust if that means them getting ahead in the end.
I have come this far, and I have succeeded by believing in myself and doing what I felt was best for me,
Regardless of what everyone else had to say and that always relying on what others were not able to see.
I am tired of second guessing myself because of the way that others make me feel,
And I know that if I don't continue to try and let it go, then I will never be able to truly heal.
From now on I am just going to keep my head down and focus on achieving my goals like never before,
And I know that my success will allow me to do what I want and to open many new doors.
I learned that the way I have been acting is exactly what they all want, and because of that, I am letting them win,
But I am ready to start a new chapter, and to start over from the way that things have been.
From now on I really don't care what anyone has to say, and I am just going to do what I want and prove them all wrong,
Because they want to see me get knocked down, but they don't realize that all they did was make me strong.