I no longer think that a relationship is good

I no longer see marriage as my goal

I no can no longer want love in my life 

Thanks Dad.

I thought you guys had a fantastic relationship 

I saw that I wanted a marriage just like you

I wanted  a love that would never simmer down

But thanks dad.

I thought leaving for Texas would mean a better life, not a place to cheat on your wife

I saw every fight you had with mom, it always replayed in my head late at night

I wanted to call the police when your love drained from your body as you hit her

But could not.

I think that all that I could forgive to help me heal 

I see that you are trying to move on with a new life and new woman

I want love to be there and be good to me 

Please dad, why did you mess this up for me?