Still Have You
I want to forget.
But I have to remember
I have to remember your face
Your smile
Your bright blue eyes that stood out whenever you wore that shirt.
The way you would take my hand when I was a little girl
The way your gruff exterior fell away just for me.
The way you pulled me up on your lap
And read aloud whatever I wanted.
The way your voice sounded when you called me Annie,
You're still the only one that could
The way you looked the first time I saw you helpless.
The way you would reach out your hand
And grasp onto mine as if it were a lifeline.
The way you said you just wanted to go be with grandma in heaven.
The feeling I had when you did.
I'd never felt so alone.
I'd never felt my heart shatter like it did when I heard the news.
I want to forget.
But I have to remember.
Because as long as I have these memories,
I still have you.