I never know what to expect.
Whether I would be loved more or be left.
Once I knew I was gay,
Everything got so complicated.
I was scared, hurt, and I didn't know what I should do.
I tried to speak up, but I kept quiet.
Afraid of being left, afraid of being unwanted.
I didn't care if I was teased or abused,
I just wanted to be loved for who I really was.
Instead of coming out, I still hide in fear with no one to help me.
Will people still love me, will I still have friends.
I sit almost always thinking, why am I here hiding in my head?
Feeling too locked away behind who I really am.