I often wonder if those who have succeeded

walk among us

if they follow, invisible in our footprints

remaining unseen

 

I have aspired countless years to become

invisible

to sink quietly into the shadows

to dance among

 

fate forces alternatives

it makes deals with my heart

behind my back

but nothing will ever be if you break

they want me to take breaths

 

in reality - or somewhere near it -

nothing will ever be 

there will always be someone stronger

more translucent than I

 

besides

I am drowning in the breaths

 

I want to walk among the ranks

of these people

I want to walk among their colors 

their blues that blend perfectly

into the sky

into the sea

 

we will dance among the broken

the ones that live in the rubble of this place

100% opacity

 

we will watch the crumbling masses

of those not strong enough

to be visible

to be invisible

 

and we, invisible few, will trick their eyes

play with their hearts

while we sit 

and feel the sun

the silence

 

idly staring at my paper

captivated by their swirling, cotton colors

in the sea fallen marble faces

 

I realize

I don’t want to fall anymore

The invisible do not fall.

 

I want to be known for

Standing

among the dulled walls

broken bodies

constant noise

 

clearly the universe has other plans

 

in my Half Forgotten existence

I stare out the window and faintly see them

dancing and living and Standing

while everything around us is crumbling