Can I truey be free of my past?

Not me 

Not mine

I can't truely be me

My past is alwys haunting me

I am so scared of my past

Yet I dare not dream of escaping

To escape my past would destroy me

My past like shackes

Binds me to hoplesness

I can't wander far without pain

Sometimes I can walk away

I always return afraid of change

Change can be for the better

It can also be for the worse

I can't chance it

My life is hard as it is

What if change makes it worse

I am a slave to my past

Afraid of freedom for fear of worse

I am not a slave to mankind

I am a slave to me

At times I wish I were free

All the time I am afraid to be free

What if I forget?

Forget who I am 

What if I change?

I hate who I am

What If I hate who I become?

I am hopeless

Helpless

Week

No chance to be strong

I am a slave

My past is my master

Despair is my cell

Anger makes my shackles

Locked to my wall of hoplesness

Nothing looks nice in the future

I am stuck in the past

MY past

Full of abuse

Abandonment

And Hardship

I can't think of the future

My future 

It has to be full of pain

Objection

and abuse like my past

Full of neglect

My past is blinding me

Blinding me from the present

Blinding me to the future.

I am doomed to repeat my mistakes

Stuck in the past

Projecting into the present adn future

This is slavery

Answer me truely I emplore

Is there any way to be free of my past?

Is there any way to free me?

Break me from this slavery.