Slam - But it was only Me
Location
Sitting on the carpet of my square room, my mind raises the curtain.
I take a seat in the middle of a vacant theater. Encompassed by red leather, my mind previews.
Flashing before me, large and vast is Today.
Exaggerated, relayed, and overanalyzed, my actions take turns finding their place. I imagine jumping balls of memory impatiently awaiting their turn to join the ohter "Should-Haves."
Suddenly, the film shows the sequel, Tomorrow.
Relief washes over me, hope is here, success is near. Glorified are those steps toward the light, just until they are not. In fact, I am so goddamn gullible to believe there was an actual light - it's all been a lie, a trick, a mean prank.
I felt the same disappointment and embarrassment as when I was five yers old, licking my lips, tantalized at the sight of delectable gourmet desserts. I was a fool to believe the glistening custard of the creme brulee was that shiny, or the drops of raspberry sauce were perfectly dotted around the chocolate souflee.
The movie has ended. I did not shed a tear. There was no applause. I was alone. And I continue to be the lone, harsh critic of the movie starring Myself.
Slam - but it was only Me.