silver bells
I've always looked at life like a fight
ignoring that it might be one
I might not win
subduing the chaos
and guiding it into being okay
like a plant's tendrils
my life seemed to grow in so many directions
all at once
for no reason
living hurts
trying to grow flowers
from weeds in the rubble
the sacred spots of colour
my only desire
life's not fair
and it doesn't fight that way
kicking you when you're already down
bloodying the wounds
reopening the scars
as you lie on the earth
tears streaming down
no matter how many times
I lose
I keep trying
even if I'll never be the champion
have the largest bounty of blooms
I love the scraggly heather and dandelion
the wild violets and clover
my little garden of weeds
they might not be as nice
or beautiful
they might not be as easy
or desirable
but they're hard to kill
they pick themselves up
dust off they're bruised limbs
smile through broken faces
fight through the rocky ground
and reach for the sun
with hopeful arms
despite it all.