Silent Solitude
The silence is burning straight through my brittle bones
The silence is scary because it leaves a presence for daunt thoughts
The first thing that races through my head is the need to die
Chasing after it is the thoughts of all of the wrong I have done
Trailing “what if’s” after all of the destruction of my emotions
Leaving the positive thoughts in the very back of my mind
With my emotions torn into bits I try to puzzle them back together
I have nothing but the positive to work like adhesive to hold the pieces together
Sometimes it is not good enough
It just shatters again like a glass window that had a brink thrown at it
It happens so often I lose pieces
I try my best to cover up the pain
One day all of it will stay together and I will be happy
For now all I can do fake it till I make it