Silent cries that got ignorged

I lost my faith and all the worth in

ones self...

didnt want to live

One cut to the skin I felt the adrenaline rush something like

Niagara Falls gave me heaven even though it was hell on earth

didnt want to live 

One cut almost ended me

the graphic image that is forever embeded into my cranium 

blood rushing,heart pupping,heavy breathing 

flashing of lights,apply pressure

didnt want to live

i almost ended me and scared i was....

my silent cries that where ignorded became loud enough for me to realize

As much as i didnt want to live i hard something worth living for