I'm in a constant state of madness
with my disarrayed hair
I stopped tampering with
and my bubbly, bright voice
that can't seem to stay quiet.
I enjoy the simple things-
particularly aesthetically pleasing things
and I find it hard to make new friends.
Anxiety fills me to the brim
when thinking two seconds into the future.
Never really in the present,
but not quite stuck in the past,
I'm a manic who's always depressed.
My highlights are when I'm a flurry
with lunatic ideas of changing
and everything appears so clear
and the world becomes so bright
and I can't even fathom everything that can happen in one night.
I find comfort
sitting at the bottom of a swimming pool
after long sets of back and forth and up and down.
Day after day, I find these goggle lines
embedded in my skin forever.
I am but a girl
and a future.
A girl ready to move forward,
even with a mind that has a tendency to go out of wack,
but with an authentic heart
that can go out
and achieve great deals.