I was staring at the ceiling; my mind was far from bed
Her words were like a broken record playing in my head
I was forced to face the truth; I’d rather face my fears instead
Cause I’ll never forget what she said

Now I’m dizzy and woozy, the rattle of an uzi
Going off in my brain, and a sharp piercing pain
Thinking my heart was kept safe behind an armored breastplate
But no bullet proof vest made could deflect from that range
Guess I’ve learned my lesson trying that stunt so death defying
Cause now I’m left here crying until I’m all dried out
But wait a sec, I’m soaking wet. There is no air; I hold my breath
I can’t figure out where I am now

All I remember is silhouettes and shadows and a room filled with silence
And behind my eyelids were tears playing hide and seek
A parasitic demon called love rooted itself under my skin
That no priest could release from inside of me
See no one ever told me that love would take control of me
And utterly expose me to this imminent demise
Shot down in the openness, I lie here motionless
Hopelessly floating in a river of tears that I cried

She said, “Stop digging around here! There’s no love to be found here!”
And now I lie down here, drowning, in a struggle to survive
Whether misguided direction, victim of false perception
Or just the course of living, I’m barely alive
My heart, it set a trap for me. I didn’t run, it captured me
And then had the audacity to tell me I’m right
Since I overstepped my boundaries, I’m wide awake, she’s sound asleep
While my tears fall countlessly in a river of tears that I cried

I CRIED…

No parents’ preparation, nor teachers’ education
Nor doctors’ dissertation could protect me from this
Now correct me if I’m wrong, but I had to learn this on my own
What doesn’t kill me makes me strong in the end

She said, “Stop digging around here! There’s no love to be found here!”
And now I lie down here, drowning…

All I remember is silhouettes and shadows and a room filled with silence
And behind my eyelids were tears playing hide and seek
A parasitic demon called love rooted itself under my skin
That no priest could release from inside of me
See no one ever told me that love would take control of me
And utterly expose me to this imminent demise
Shot down in the openness, I lie here motionless
Hopelessly floating in a river of tears that I cried