PTSD
Been trying to wiped away ghost
of the past memories
Through all the places I've been to
I have lost everything that really counted
It pains me to think can't get this over with

They were so wrong in thinking
Of doing what they thought was best
Nothing good was coming out of it
I'd sunk in to a deep water

Now I've calculated over my mischiefs
With unsettling nerves through the hard part
I have been denied something important
It brought my distance near
Make me feel so flustered
PTSD is all it is about
With any luck I might survive
Terrifying event

PTSD got to me so fast
Rehashing the past as inevitable
It was so wrong to take advantage
Of my innocent memories
Easy to fool me around to forgiving
But never to forgetting
The violence over my helpless soul
I hear their rattle voices
When I couldn't defend myself
Reducing me to begging

They have taken my life from me
Nothing comes close to amendment
I feel my pain and my anger
Without anyone to share with
Every time I'm close to remembering
I'm buried in my solitude with no one
To stood by me
See friends and family clearly giving me away

Its my life I have to fight
On a battle ground
It was never a good fight
It keeps on bringing my weakness
I'm holding on to my parch life
Truncate with terrors of the past
And errors of the present

©Nature Boy