i think i changed the most 

when he and i broke each other’s hearts 

 

in a playground game of catch 

we fearfully threw our hearts back and forth 

 

there was a time when i got scared

hastily threw his back and ran away 

 

and another, when i opened myself back up 

but he dropped mine in order to run to her 

 

and we have tried for years 

to ignore each other’s glances 

 

but we are too old for playground games 

he can still be important to me without 

 

me throwing my everything at him

because he is going through too much of his own life 

 

i have to remain intact 

and besides

 

time has thrust us into different schools now 

and another boy has reached for my heart

 

we have outgrown our playground games 

but i will always remember 

 

the boy who first helped me feel 

the sensation of a smiling heart