Petrichor
On some of my better days
I rise before the sun does
That darkness, the hopeful kind
Cradles me the way that my front yard
Holds rainwater for too long.
And why is it that when
The sun comes up I feel
A drop of rain slide down
From the inner corner of my eye
Into the corner of my mouth?
What did I lose last night
Between then and four
In the morning, Why am
I in mourning, for friends
And love I dreamt of?
Still hazy and with the
Taste of sickly-sweet
Pillow-speak, sorry,
Sometimes I talk in my sleep,
To myself, to no one, to nothing.
The only constant I have,
Is gone when I try to
Derive its existence,
The smell of rain on concrete
Filling my lungs like
I wished the memories that
I don’t have filled my skull
To the brim, overflowing like
The gutter seven inches
From my bedroom window.
Too often puddles make
Me laugh, holding hands with
Anxiety and wet socks,
They make signs warning of
The dangers of a wet floor
But who checks in on the clouds
Aloof, impressive, vulnerable
Maybe if someone checked in
They wouldn’t cry so often
And I wouldn’t be able to feel rain on the pavement.