Happines where is it? 

I sit & wonder will I ever get it?

My fake happines is fading each day

No one can tho its just me

I can only keep this act up for long

Once I stop I know thing will start to go wrong

Pain I already felt it 

Tears I already cired them

Love ones I lost them 

So anger is what I'm starting to build up

& It's slowly starting to take over 

But that's not who I am 

I just want to be as happy as I am pretending to be