My first
Location
Eleven years old
Slipped into the basement with my boyfriend
Dated for nine months
Looked for a tuner
Talked about alcoholism
Kissed for the very first time
Eleven years old
Sitting in my room with my best friend
Triple dog dared me to kiss her
I did
She’s straight
I’m bi
Twelve years old
In a tent with my best friend
Woke up in the night and she touched me
She’s still straight
I’m still bi.
Thirteen years old
Pinned to a couch by my boyfriend
Two years, seven months
His fingers are in me
I’m crying.
He wanted it
I didn’t.
Fourteen years old
On my new boyfriend’s floor
I’m telling him
“please fuck me”
like it’ll fix me.
a few minutes later
I’m still broken
Sixteen years old
Newest girlfriend is sitting in my my lap
We are both clad only in underwear
I can see her tanned skin under the moonlight
Her lips on my neck
“i love you.”
I think I know what it means to make love