I wish somebody knew me

But nobody knows me

And it’s my fault

I push away

To be safe

Being alone

Is safer than being

With others, others who

Will hurt you.  And use you.

But using isn’t all that bad

It can even be fulfilling

It can make you feel

Grown, happy, full

For me it’s not

Working, tho

It just hurts

I wish it

Didn’t

But it do

And I don’t

Know what to

Do.  It hurts to be

With you and it hurts

To be alone.  Why can’t

I feel happy?  Why is life so

Hard?  It’s not even that hard!

It’s easy!  Just follow the rules, and

Keep your head down and you’ll be fine

Instead I want things to be better and

It hurts that things aren’t.  So now I

Am sad.  And depressed.  Forget

It.  Why bother trying to change

Things?  Change won’t help

People feel safe or loved

Or needed or alive.  It

Just complicated life

And makes the day

Long for no need

I wish it didn’t

But it does

I don’t no

What to

Do ab

Out

It

I w

Ant t

O help

But i don

‘T know ho

W.  This look

S dramatic doe

N’t it?  Splitting up

The letters and the s

Entences like this.  It’s

Scary to look at.  It makes

Me seem depressed.  But hey

That’s what I’m going for here.