Does anyone else ever just want to completely disapperar and cut everyone off and never talk to anyone ever again because you're finally at a point where things are good but you're scared it'll go away, so you'd rather be sad again because there's comfort in being alone and following the same bad habits, and even though you hate looking in the mirror and seeing the scars knowing you're lying to so many about what you did and how you feel but you basically need this to function and it almost feels "normal" than when you feel happy and cared for? 

Cause me too.