Why do I do this to myself?
I push myself to be fit
Yet I can't always do it on my own.
Do I even love myself anymore?
First it's my job now it's the gym,
My only other happy place.
What else will I push away?
Please explain why I feel this way
Is it insecurity or self-esteem?
Because it must be both.
Maybe I'm slowly losing myself and
Now I'm not sure if I'm happy anymore.
Please learn to push myself,
Love myself,
Make an effort
No matter what.