A lost soul, looking for the light, trapped in mental slavery, trapped in the darkness, trapped in this state of depression and suicidal thoughts, losing the one closest to me… I never thought that losing you would be a reality call, I never thought losing you would put me in a state of sadness, I never thought that this would hurt me...not just mentally, but physically and spiritually as well, I became nothing more then a broken spirit, I became a emotional wreck, darker than anyone around me, I lost my best friend, i lost you  A lost soul, looking for the light, trapped in mental slavery, trapped in the darkness, years of constant bullying and abuse from those around me, making me feel like I’m worthless, making me feel ugly and weak and unappreciated and masked from the words you said to me, from the hands that touched me as I walked through that place of hatred and sadness. I wanted to die and y’all wanted it to happen, I couldn’t help that I was different. I couldn’t help that I didn’t fit in, because of that I suffered the price for not being…. Like you… A lost soul, looking for the light, trapped in mental slavery, trapped in the darkness, the soul that is awakening slowly, it’s putting the pieces of it’s hard life together, realizing that everything happens for a reason, realizing that everyone loses a loved one surprisingly, realizing that the ones that bullied me, wanted to be me, realizing that if God wanted me to be dead, I would have been dead already, realizing that this lost soul…. Has found the light.