I never knew you, knew too much about you.

I know enough though, to know how much I miss you.

How alone I feel, and how dark this place is where I reside,

with an over abundance of solitude,

because getting lost in a crowd really won't help things.

It really won't change things,

to cry,

and beg,

and plead with god to bring back the boy I only knew for a moment. 

But that moment changed the entire course of my life, made me question whether or not I want to live it without you.

While I know I don't,

that much is clear to me,

I have no choice in the matter. 

I am here

I am going to try to forget February.