Life Lesson #1
Beeps of the monitor wake me
He’ll make it through wait and see
He’s still not moving
And now I’m shaking
Crying out, holding his hand
Hoping that our dreams will still go as planned
At last he wakes, different than before
But it’s okay ‘cause I love him even more
A few months later and he’s gone
I will always be his shoulder to cry on
They all tell me rehab will be good
I don’t want him to go, I’d stop it if I could
We’re miles apart
But he still has all of my heart.
He’s breaking
I’m cutting
But together we are still loving
He comes home
After being locked up he just wants to roam
Sadder than before but still breathing
Both of our hearts still beating
He says he just needs a day
Just to relax to fall back in his old way
I listen and comply
Hoping what he’s telling me isn’t a lie
Flash forward some time
Now he’s acting like everything I do is a crime
The screaming the cursing
Every word burning
The cuts I make run deep
I never seem to sleep
Then comes the swing
If only I knew how many bruises our “love” would bring
He begs my forgiveness I happily give in
I knew he loved me and I start to grin
He’s trying hard and I can tell
Our lives are perfect not like that hell
Something’s different than before
He never talks to me anymore
Tears in my eyes
I lie to myself and say he tries
Then I see who he really is
Used and hurt I cry out
“I did everything for you! What’s this about?!”
He doesn’t care
Even through the two years we share
But at least now I see
The only one who was in love was me
There is still a happy end
I am better off
I just need some time to mend