A Letter to my Friends
Dear Scissors,
When did you stop being
My child-hood friend?
At what point in time
Were you promoted from
Cutting paper to skin?
And why can’t I look you
In the eyes
Without screaming for help?
Somewhere in between
Playing dolls
And making mom proud;
I lost myself,
Became someone else.
Dear Razors,
Hello.
How are you?
May I ask how your cousin is doing,
Does he miss our playdates
Or has he decided that your lips
Can kiss me better?
The bell chimed.
The party had begun,
As Scissors said a quick hello,
Introduced his cousin,
Then said goodbye.
He approached
Slowly but calmly,
Took my hand
And spun me around.
Ran his long fingers
Against my delicate skin.
“Oh what a pleasure
It would be to imprint my name
All over you.”
He took me by the arms
Traced lines
That would last a life time,
Never will I forget
The way
His images burned
Against my skin.
His touch was captivating,
I craved him more
With each mark he made.
Dear Razors,
Are you enjoying your stay?
Will you love me till the end of time?
Scissors called for me,
Cried about missing me,
Asked how my relationship was,
Did Razors treat me the same?
Did he tell me
That I was capable of
Creating art
Fir for a king?
”Well no,
But his drawings
Make me feel beautiful.”
Scissors calls to me,
“He’s hurting you!
Can’t you see,
He’s the painter
And you’re the art,
But his art is not lovely
It’s deadly!”
“Well if love is deadly,
I’ll die in his arms.
He is mine
And I am his.”
HE creeps into my room,
Tells me he has a friend
Who wants to meet me.
The newcomer enters
With a wicked smile,
He says a girl like me
Is in need of decoration.
Razors pulls me aside,
“I’ll make you beautiful.”
He kisses my skin,
Adds color to the fading images.
“Isn’t she lovely?”
He holds my arms out
For depression to see,
The pretty roses he drew.
“Oh yes,
But her smile must go,
It’s distracting
From the art.”
Depression left
Along with Razors,
They visited me nightly,
Teaching me their beauty.
Depression
Held my hand in public,
Reminding me not to smile,
Keep it all hidden.
Razors and Depression,
They were my only friends,
Unable to feel
Without them by my side.
Dear Depression,
Thank you
For showing me pain.
Dear Razors,
Thank you
For making me beautiful.
Dear Scissors,
I never got to say goodbye.
I’m sorry.
I’m not the little girl
You used to know.
I’m all grown up now,
Slaying monsters with swords,
Though there is a monster
I’ve yet to demolish...
Myself.