Dear, God

 

I am writing to you to inform you about my life

Lately I have been going through a little strife

My mom and dad have recently separated

And the void between them leaves me devastated

The conditions at home are dark and unstable

A happy home for my brothers is now fable

Constant crying mom doesn't know how she’ll survive

I’m dying internally but I feel alive

My problems seem eternal but they could be worse

I try not to complain but I can’t bare this curse

I need help and I have nobody to turn to

From your guidance I’m sorry that I have withdrew

It’s just that I’ve asked for help and did not receive

I hate to say it but I don’t think I believe

Perhaps if I lived in a world full of flowers

I wouldn’t have to question your presence for hours

Time is temporary, I try to make the most

So what’s the point of worshipping a silent ghost

If you would speak or show me a sign I’d praise you

I’d be more than happy to witness and graze you

All I ask for is some help with my family

I’m paralyzed with torment, can you stand with me

I’m the father to my brothers while dad’s at work

What happens when I’m gone, will all the demons lurk

I awake and find myself drowning in worry

I’m running out of time I need you to hurry

Splash me with holy water and shield me from pain

Fill me with your godly love and let my tears rain   

Forgive me for all the times I used to resent

Excuse me if I’m still doubtful in the present

I give myself to you though I can't help but fear

That I'm writing this poem for no one to hear

Sincerely,

Justus Stephens