Just Shy
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“I’m not shy, I’m just quiet.”
My friend says without lie
But I can’t help thinking to myself
“I’m not quiet, I’m just shy”
It isn’t that I don’t want to talk
Or that I don’t like anyone
It’s just that when I try to speak
I end up wanting to run
And then the words get all choked up
Right there inside my throat
And soon I begin to wish
I’d never even spoke
And there’s this lie that
People are telling me
That anyone can be
Whoever they want to be
That you can say
What you want
And you can do
What you want
And if people don’t accept you
Then they aren’t worth your time
And they really don’t matter—Unless
You're shy
Because if you’re shy
Then you can’t really be who you are
And if you’re shy
Then you must be trying too hard
And if you’re shy you’re fake
Of prideful or closed
But no one cares to think
That the loud people might be posed
Because when everyone’s loud
And can say what they will
Then everyone’s accepted except
Those it kills
Then I’ve heard that only
Children are shy
Like only children whine
And only children cry
And I need to grow up
And out of my fear
I need to mature
Because at this age it’s just weird
But that doesn’t make sense
And it doesn’t seem right
That they get to decide
What I should be like
And none of my friends
Seem to understand
What it’s like to be so shy
That you just CAN’T
That when you try to dance
You suddenly can’t move
Or when you try to say hey
Your courage you lose
And it’s not that you’re quiet
And it’s not for your pride
It’s just that you’re terribly
Painfully shy
And then I hear these people say
“Oh that girl’s so rude!
She never talks to anyone
Like she’s always in a mood”
Or they say the opposite
And label her too awkward, right?
But what can she do about awkwardness
When her tongue’s all tied?
And I think to myself,
“They all wonder why:
They never pause to think that she’s
Not quiet, she’s just shy.”