Is it what you wanted?

Is it what you wanted?

Everyday, I wake up to future disappointments.

Everything I do is wrong in your eyes.

All you ever hear is others voices.

Others who you don't want to identify.

How am I to react when you hide their names?

I only ask because of the safety of us together.

It only builds trust to share the truth.

But does it ever cross your mind, will it soon?

That what ever happens to you is critical to me.

Does it ever tell you that I don't ask more.

Than what goes on between us.

All I ever do is cause annoyance and insanity.

Every time I try to make you laugh, I get put down.

Like a kind gentle pet dead in a pound for no reason.

I do so much and so very little is shown.

Is this what you wanted, honestly I'm the worst of boys.

I have no style to address my looks and personality.

You stay because you care, but you've always want others.

The things I say just make us worst, even not speaking is worse.

Why do I have sins luck with the people I love.

All I do is cause more trouble.

You wonder why I blame myself for things that you might have done.

I'm a load of bull in the drain of the waste used daily.

I'm the only reason why you stress so much.

There's so many things that make me so selfish.

Each drop of my tears have no excuse.

I wonder too much about your life.

No wonder you walk away without a hug.

Like everyone else except they don't care about me.

Every night I cry myself to sleep because of what you think of me. I

talk to much, I say so much, you want someone interesting.

No one ever wants me because of just plain.

It's not a surprise if you had enough of me and my mistakes.

I don't deserve your love and emotion.

I only deserve the loneliness I have every single day.

You have a social life, all I have is dust in my past.

You say things that bless my heart.

Then later, none of it is true! Is this what you wanted?!

To tell me love that never existed.

All my life, I've been used, cheated, lied... Will you escape our marriage kiss too?

I'm a mess, I just happiness with you happy to.

You do just for my happiness when your not happy.

I should die for causing you to give up so quick.

I'm horrible, just plain criminal.

You'll be happier with someone else in the future.

No matter how much I give at this point.

The love, cure, all of it that I've given every day to you.

Will be nothing, I already see you walking into another.

I'm sorry for it all.

This is why I should be blamed for all of it.

Because this was not what you really wanted.

All this, is just disaster I caused.

I will burn and decay because of it.

I will serve the sacrifice.

For showing you what you wanted, that will never again be me...

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