I thought 

I was ready for heart break

when I was seven years old

and the most important man in my life

left. 

 

I thought I would be okay

with a broken heart

when the only friends I've ever had

walked away

with harsh words on their trail

 

I knew I would be fine

when all the boys that summer

said to me

"it meant nothing"

 

I knew 

I was okay

with heart break

when the boy I loved

left me behind

for drugs

 

I never thought 

I would replay 

the words you said

over and over

 

I never knew 

that someone like you 

would show me

what actual heart break is

 

I never saw 

myself wasting time

writing words about you

that you will never read