Don't put me last in your list

When I put you first in mine

Got me feeling like the caboose

When I know I should be first in line.

Make me feel like I'm wanted
I'm not asking to be flaunted
But there is this certain emptiness that I keep feeling
I just need to keep real and
Give my heart this healing
Sorry if you feel like I'm going in
You tell me there is not a reason to lie to me
But I can't help the past makes you hard to believe
Trust issues vs loving you
Who really wins?
I try to disqualify the issues
Because the heart is hard to defend
I don't see how you can ask so much of someone
are you even the one?
Oops maybe I shouldn't ask questions like that.
Cause then you will feel some type of way and won't come back
How do I really know you love me
You said that before
Can we elevate and not stay on the first floor?
Or is that too much to ask for?