Sometimes it rains on my face

a lot

those salty raindrops you know?

I wish I can make the stop

but the more I want to, the more they fall.

 

I feel like I’m being strangled

choked on rope of words

grasping for air. Breathe in and out I say

I don’t want to cry

 

but…

I feel so blind

my eyes are clouded by raindrops waiting to fall

creating a pool of rain in my eyes

my vision is blurred.

 

I turn away from their stares. Their words.

only to face another name calling

what have I done?

“Please… just leave me alone,” I whisper

*Silence*

It’s done, they’re gone

silence was momentarily

I'm accompanied by laughter and those words…again.

 

I would call for help… but I don’t know how to.

how do I?

with a mouth that yells with inaudible screams

weak.

alone.

 

All those faces looking at me with hate and amusement.

save me I shout with my eyes,

help. I pray, someone please help me.

 

I don’t have any more strength.

I can’t defend myself. They’re too strong for me.

 

My mind converses with me, everyday,

why?

why do you let yourself let them

why do you do that to yourself

why do you make yourself weak

why wait for someone

YOU can do it

you can

 

I answer

I don’t know…

everytime

 

They told me I can do it…

but can I?

they said I can

so I can...right?

it's hard... i cant

they said don’t be weak

speak up

'you can do it' they said

 

but I…never listened

I’m tired… exhausted

I don’t want this anymore.

 

My mind reminds me again

“You can do it. They said you can

You know you can.”

 

I think... I can.

 

“I can do it.” I tell myself.

 

I stand up

I speak

and look at them in the eyes

my chin high and back straight

 

“I’m not your laughing stock anymore.

I won’t let you do this to me.”

 

I walk away

Proud

Smiling

I did it

 

If you’re being bullied

know that…

you can do this

you can get through it

I know you can

 

Speak up, don’t imprison your thoughts

let them hear you

your words are stronger than theirs

don’t let them get to you

 

#StopBulllying