I am not a toy

At your fucking disposal

You will not decide 

How worthy I am today

Or tommorow

Or ever

You will never reduce me to a ignored phone call

A disregarded text message

A quick glance in the hallways 

When my only crime

Was giving you my attention

Was for my genuine intentions

Was treating you like how a person was meant to be treated

Was loving you 

Loving you a little more then I loved myself

So you can only imagined how I felt

When you treated her like everything

Leaving me here like I was nothing 

Not a damn thing 

worth mentioning  to your little immature friends 

Who can only dream of finding someone like me

Who would go that hard for someone like you 

My heart aches for you each night 

And I just want to hold you 

But if I have to rent parts of you

Then I don't want none of you

Your name shouldn't be synonymous  to pain

And being with me shouldn't never make you feel shame

Your heart was never something i tried to tame 

Instead I gave you space when you asked for it

I gave you more when you couldn't 

You took a huge chunk when u swore it was only a bite

And you probably never knew

But I cried about it every night 

I am not a toy

At your fucking disposal

You don't decide when your done playing with me

Leaving me in your toy trunk full of your insecurities and shortcomings

You should of seen this coming 

This wasn't a surprise 

When my heart whispers

It's final goodbye