I’ve lain awake with My Regrets

The things I wish I would have done

Instead of the things I wish I didn’t

Disgusted at what I’ve become

Chances I could have taken

Plans I could have changed

So I would not be feeling so shaken

 

I’ve lied awake Regretting

Mostly every decision in my life

The differences between happiness and sadness

Actions that caused strife,

Painful and deep

Scaring in multitude

Never ceasing to weep

 

I’ve lain awake in full Regret

My Shame laid out beside me

Things I have hidden

Who I long to become

Instead of this monstrosity

Because of My Regret

And Painful Memories

I do not think I’m worthy

Of serendipity

And any good that comes my way

Laying awake in the cover of darkness

Is where I wish to stay

 

I’ve lost sleep Regretting

Words I have said

Aches I have caused

And I begin to wonder

Could anyone love me at all

Through My Shame and Insecurity

My Bitter Viewpoints

And My Impurities

Does anyone else know

How it feels to Regret

Almost everything they’ve done

And to have almost nothing been accomplished

By the life that’s already gone

 

I’ve stayed awake deciding

Regret is a selfish feeling

For I have the precious chance,

though sometimes it doesn’t seem it,

To be living

And all this time wasted in Regret

Could be spent

Fixing the mess I’ve made

And all that deserved contempt

 

Now, regret no longer withholds My Dreamland

It is a place that I go often

I’ve managed to keep regret at bay

Its blows have begun to soften

There still are some bad days

Seldom they have become

regret is no longer My Identity

My Battle has been won.

 

 

laceyfinnegan