You wonder why you aren't good enough.
For those full-ride scholarships like others
When you worked so hard.
You grow angry because you were told that education is the most important thing
But the very same people who tell you that give you a measly 6000 in the face of 30000.
You sigh in exhaustion as your parents tell you everything will be alright
But you know that's not true because you are an adult now.
You know that they only want to protect you
But you can hear them ask, "What are we going to do?"
You feel that pit in your stomach.
You know everything is not alright.
Why do they insist on you going to a big university when you would be happy in community college?
Worry that you won't get a job after community.
Don't they understand?
This is a big world.
This is a mean world.
We can't trick ourselves anymore,
So how do you pay for college?
You die with debt
And a heavy mind.