How Long Alone

How much longer will I be alone

With only my old friends back home

To tie me to life with love

With lines strong and true

But so few, so few.

How much longer will I walk this path

Alone in the darkness

Alone in the light

Alone in my sorrow

And my delight.

How long until there is someone

Someone by my side

To share the trials and triumphs of life

Someone with whom to bide

As the seasons turn.

How long until I make a friend

A new friend who shares my time

Someone to call when I feel alone

Someone to laugh when I smile

Someone to hold me

Just because we love.

How much longer must I stand like this

Weary in my solitude

I was not made to stand alone

Though I do it well

The strength of my image

Does not allay

The cost to my soul.

How much longer can I smile

At the little joys of life

With no one to share them but me

And my friends and family so far away?

How long until I can finally relax

Caught in a web of synergy

In the embrace of my people

Who I have not found?

I know how long until I am home

I can count the days

Until my parents and best friend are near

Until I can unwind on our island

Yes I know how long until then,

But how long until I make

A new friend?

How long can I smile in solitude

How long can I laugh with fleeting comrades

How long can I watch them leave

Uncaring of their absence

Alone on my path

Alone in time and space

Until I crumple.

Already I seek solace in fantasy

In books and anime and creation

Already I cling to the ones back home

While I long for more

It hasn’t been enough

For years upon years.

How long until I find them

The ones I can both love and keep

To share our lives

To care and play

May it be how long

And not the question

Will I ever.

The world is wide

My time is long

May I travel far enough

May I find them soon

May we live and laugh and love

Beneath aging sun and fleeting moon.

 

This poem is about: 
Me

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