How could I wake up to the feeling of nothing?

The questioning as if I could resist another day of being alive,

of realizing where my life will be in a year

or two

for a long while I didn't picture my future as successful as I do now

with my friends and family beside me supporting me 

and my "bad mind friends" gone

I can wake up to this happy person

motivated to do anything and everything that crosses me

with the mindset of Einstein and attitude of Beyonce 

I conquer the day and make every single day as precious as I can

with the love and support of family and friends 

I now greet every morning as a lost friend

someone who I lost touch with but now realize what I missed out of

a happy person with a motivating mindset

So I say How could I ever wake up to the feeling of nothing?