The Hidden Me
I wake up
and the messages are all around me
they swirl and contradict
"Be yourself"
one says.
Another tells me
"thin is in"
but I thought
"big is beautiful"?
In the end
the mish-mash of myself
deemed acceptable by society
is a fragment.
She has never felt
the exhilerating high
of winning a robotics tournament.
She's not supposed to be too smart.
Nor
the crushing despair
of lonliness
and the pain of rejection.
Is she really me?
I do not know.