In Her Eyes
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The world crashes in front of her eyes
she doesnt know what to do
shes all alone , noone beside her
she tries to remember how it started, why it started
she starts from the begginng of her life
she was a accident made by a kid herself
love wasnt there
hidden deep down inside her
waiting to come out
but not soon enough
she wanted a boy, got a girl
thats when it started
the abuse mentally physically and emotionally
she was left at home alone
taking care of another little mistake
just able to walk, hating every moment in her life
everyone in it
wishes she could change it any chance she got
hated the little mistake she had to take care of
she needed help she neede to get out
go somewhere
finally
her wish came true
she got what she wanted
away
dropped off at the doorstep waiting for there new life to begin
she closes her eyes
not knowing what to expect
she dreams of a place where she can be the greatest little mistake ever made
she refuses to open her eyes
look into reality, see whats really on
shes stuck in her own little world
not caring
not loving
just hating
she doesnt know how to love
never taught how
never taught to give just take
she takes your heart and breaks it any chance she gets
it makes her feel happy
it makes her feel like the greatest mistake ever made
she tries to convince herself
this is the way to live
but deep down inside she knows
that once was a dream is now a nightmear
her life
she wants to get out
make something of herself
she doesnt know how
doesnt know where to begin
she tried before but it was useless
she couldnt stay clean
she wanted to feel the way she did before
CAREFREE
the feeling of not caring is what she was good at
she could do it with or without the help of her best freind
she missed the way it made her feel good or bad it didnt matter
she always came back for more
her life was in danger
nowhere to turn
she had lost control of her life
she says shes clean and got nothing to hide
shes out of our reach, left us behind
its a ll a lie
she lives right down the street
you can see it in her eyes
always worried
wondering whats going to happen next
scared
she sees a cop and tries to run
get away go somewhere
quick
doesnt want to get caught
go back to the life she once knew so long ago
just a faint memory
lurking behind the masked mistake
memory fading faster and faster
soon she wont rememebr the one she once called mom
shell forget the meaning of family
if she hasnt already
nothing left
no feeling
only her best freind
her life
by kristal rogers
this poem was writen about my older sister who fell hard into drugs at a very young age. i was 13 when i wrote this poem. the poem talks about my sister and my mom and me and our adoption.