Her
The Anniversary of What Started Everything
My name is kimmy
and i was raped
at the age of 3

it has taken me
29 years of my life
for those 13 words to escape
my hollow mouth

the only questions i come to now
is why?
why lock me in that room
why take everything from me
my innocence
my purity
Most of all
my childhood

I’m my own room
where i trusted you
the night terrors i have to this day
still haunt my mind

like a never ending
drive in movie that plays
over
and
over
only the moon in the night sky
isnt made to be found here
there is no light in these terrors

i cant sleep this time of year
because every time i do
I see you
in that room
locking the door
shutting the windows
undressing me
yelling at me
every single night
i close my eyes

it has taken me 27 years
to accept the fact that i was taken by you
i have been numb ever since
left in the dust
rotting away at the core
thinking i was nothing
thinking i deserved nothing
because you took everything

but not anymore
i will recover from this
i am strong enough
i believe in myself
i believe in my own happiness
and i promsie
that when i have children one day
i will never ever let them rot at the core
i will find happiness
the darkness will not take over this time