When he died, I died too

He left me trapped within myself

They say you never forget your first love

But I wasn't given that choice 

"Wait for me, only until we're eighteen", He said 

We knew everything about love at fourteen

Even if we knew nothing about life

Days waisted on Skype 

Nights spent on the phone  

I waited just as I had promised 

We made the plans 

We were going to get a place together 

He talked about the dinners we would eat 

And the animals we would own 

He was going to sing me into oblivion 

How come at eighteen we know everything about life,

and nothing of love?

At eighteen I learned about death

Death meant I would always be waiting 

And I get to spend my nights alone 

I am engulfed in the same flames that killed him

Everyday is hell on earth.