I should not thank them,

for I lived three years in hell

with no escape - not even a chance.

To thank, is not wise

not after what I endured;

knowing the demons who were to blame.

Yet thanking is thought,

for thanks is shown when grateful,

though I will never say this aloud.

But is thanks too strong

or too great a redemption,

if my demons will forever haunt?

I suppose it is,

though I can't help wondering:

what i would have been without my hell...