To Grow is To Thaw First
It is true that nothing fixed was not first broken
When the rays of sun filter through the clouds and breathe spring into early May
It is only a deep exhale after winter’s tense, repressed torment
Just as May, I am never quite as fresh and alive as when I first release from the cold
When the fracturing of a heart occurs and frigid halves must separate
I find that after the thaw
I am always riper than before
Words that once crawled from my pen flow like a creek muscling through the last of winter’s resolve
Tears are not a burden but blessed rain, the water to battle away the freeze of feeling and the self-pity of snow, the suffocating fears that sadness is all a mistake and I was better off before
Yet rebirth is too flimsy a word to explain the utter creation that occurs
When I shake hands with my woes and slowly part ways
When floods welcome in self-respect and warm feelings stay
To experience the dissolution of a dependency on someone else is to coax the growth of oneself and let the harmony of thought and life coexist
I am never more myself
I am never greater in being, stronger in feeling and attuned to the world as it beckons with opportunity
Than after love leaves me broken