I want you to see all of my happiness

I want you to see my friends

And my grades

I want you to feel like you screwed up

Because you did

 

But I forgive you

 

You dropped my trust on the filthy floor

And that was the end of our friendship

 

Or was it?

Did it end without me noticing?

 

You see

I want you to feel awful

But not really

I truly want you to be happy

And I hate that

I want to be angry

I want to feel like I have the right

But I don’t

Because I will always feel like I was the one who messed up

The one who dropped you

Even if I didn’t

I want to be angry

I want to hate you

But I never could

Because I loved you so much that thought of hating you isn’t even comprehensible

 

Because I loved you

And now I don’t even know you