Forest Fires In Reno Continue Unabated: Students Take No Notice, Study Harder
This past winter I was nothing but tired.
Smoke sank into Reno like slow water into a bowl
and the Common App was released;
my friend and I were up at midnight four states across,
in two different time zones, clicking madly the little arrow,
computer screens sparked to light like an ember,
the glowing tip of a cigarette
flicked to screaming heights by a careless visiting salesman.
I was instructed to breathe deep as the smoke and ash fell into
this crater of dry grass,
this ridiculous ball-pit city—
“Breathe deep, because it will settle once you have acclimated.”
Acceptance rates are at an all-time low
(an Ivy is not a match whisper that to yourself)
the smoke, meanwhile, has been contained at 20 percent
and I breathed deep, spinning flecks of white dust into my lungs.
“It will settle once you have acclimated,
like you have always been
this heavy…”
and the smoke has been contained at 15 percent
but the eye of the sun has faded to an indifferent red
and taken no notice.
Regardless I have written three thousand words tonight
each one to be read by dry and faded eyes.
I want to make time an untameable entity.
I want to spend one day without a sparking hot screen.
The fire has been contained at 5 percent and the flames
have engulfed thirty thousand students
all applicants to your Harvards and Yales
eyelids frizzing they stared quietly up at the dying sun
made red by smoke and the itching weight of their heavy minds
(they hardly even noticed when they could no longer see)
“Breathe deep, because it will settle,” someone hissed
late at night, when my laptop’s glow had left me tossing and turning
at three A.M., the lonely insomniac’s hour.
I want to walk ten thousand steps on solid ground.
I want to spend one day touching only real things.
The fire has been contained at 0 percent.
Firemen have been tossing down hoses all day,
scratching their heads in bewilderment,
unable to take their eyes off the shrieking flames.
They will not notice
when it begins
to snow.