Chocolate rolled curls and a wide bridged nose

Your absence invokes poignancy in me

And yet, I am gay at the sound of your twinkling voice

Calling me sunshine, your angel, your baby

The feeling of your arms wrapped so tightly 

Around my quaking body 

That struggles with the challenge 

Of holding back waves and tides of salty oceans 

With the strength of six thousand men,

I attempt to smile

But once again, your face makes

Another tear drips down and my lip trembles

You know me far too well

Questioning my sanity, my emotional state

Is the only thing you think to do

The second you hear the quiet tones

Of a voice too sad, too tired to speak any louder

I know you told me we'd be together again soon

But soon feels like eons away

And my chest feels like it's caving in on itself

My heart wants to give out

Constriction is the only thing that I feel 

Parting from you once again

Your resilience amazes me

Why don't you cry in front of me?

Of course for the same reason as me

We're both pretty brave

Mom, I miss you dearly

I miss dancing with you 

In bright kitchens with music floating in the air

Or rather, you dancing around a person too shy to try

I miss arguing with you

Because the boom is better than the silence

I miss asking you about your day

Laying in bed, cuddling because I miss the old times

And writing this poem

About my utter devotion and love for you

You, the love of my life, my heart

Commands swift floods to rush to my eyes

And once again, I must hold back

Of course, I will see you again

When all of my work is done

But you say five more weeks

...I say the rest of my life